One week left!
The days flow as usual as I try to keep myself busy.
Last Friday I was with my new contact person at the employment office
and it went great.
Finally a person you could talk to and who really listened to my situation.
We found a good solution for all of us
until I know how everything will be after the operation,
a weight less to carry.
The nights are still the hardest because it is when the subconscious comes out,
I turn and twist and the thoughts just spin in the head.
I'm not always as strong as I think, even if I show it outwards.
Then it's that feeling I get sometimes.
I am very open about my situation
but it feels like I am pest-infected or something like that,
because it feels like people are avoiding me and that you are not talking about it.
But as a friend wrote to me
"it is allowed to have down moments even how good the fighter you are"
and she knows how to fight and has had many setbacks.
In a week, the operation is over
and I can start looking forward again and I will live every day to the limit.
I'll finish with words from my friend
"When everything feels gray - look for colors".
Wishing you a wonderful day wherever you are in the world,
and don`t forget to live your life.
Love and Hugs for you all / Ann