It's been a while!
It was a while since I blogged.
Sometimes it is very difficult to gather all the thoughts,
it spins around in the head
and some things can not be released at all.
I really thought I could release everything with the cancer,
when I received a positive message after the surgery,
but I can't, it just spins a lot of thoughts in the head.
I know it can hit my second breast or the same breast again.
It's just like when I operated my first lung,
but then I didn't know
that with 99% will happen to my other lung.
It happened 6 years later,
so it is such thoughts that spin around the head,
how long before it happens again.
I know I shouldn't think so, but it's not that easy.
It may never happen, but what if it does.
Everyone who has gone through something like this
knows how it is,
it is not only possible to forget it is there
and it has happened.
I have so many around me in my life,
but this is something that I have to deal with myself.
Then there are things I need to arrange in my life,
it was not an easy step to take but still a relief to do so.
There are not always positive things you have to do
in life to feel good,
and someone gets hurt on the way for you feel good.
But it still feels like a relief when you get it out of you.
Some will hate you others will understand.
But I hope that I still get an understanding of what I do.
I will return to this when I feel that I can be more open.
Now on to positivity.
My grandson Leo turns 6 years,
stop the time it goes way too fast.
He will start school for the fall, Grandma's little guy.
He had a pirate party with his friends and I had made a pirate ship and a treasure chest that he helped with.
It's so much fun because he likes to create with me.
My second grandson John is almost 1 year and 4 months,
feels like he was born a week ago.
He is a very smart little guy and knows exactly what he wants.
But it is good to know what you want,
you come a long way with that.
One day I got flowers that warmed my heart so much
something I absolutely didn't expect.
Today I was at the employment office and it was positive and finally it might lead to a job.
Today my youngest daughter turned 31 years old and her boyfriend proposed to her
and she said YES.
My little, little girl how could the time go so fast.
I'm so happy for you.
Feels like it's time to stop writing now,
you get a little empty in your head
when all the emotions come to the surface.
Wish you all a wonderful day / evening
wherever you are in the world.
Lots of Love and Hugs for you all / Ann