Hello again

It was a while ago but now I feel like I need to write off a bit
and try to write regularly.
Two years ago, my love disappeared from my life,
but came back after a year. A week ago, he left me again.
In retrospect, how did I think why did I let him come back.
But as they say, love is blind.
I was told that I am selfish and only think about me and what I need.
Whaaat!!!!!!
Everyone who knows me  know that I am the least selfish person
. I have always put others first and still do. But I'm not depressed, I feel relieved.
I have felt for a long time that something was wrong.
He is such an immature person that he could not say it face to face, but wrote it in message.
But it hurts a little that everything was just built on a lie.
It was the absolute last time he was allowed to come into my life
and the last time I gave my heart away.
Maybe I should think a little more about myself to avoid getting hurt.
But I have my beloved children and grandchildren who give me so much love and joy.
My friends who are always there.
I have a job that I enjoy, and my lovely cat Frasse.
He gives me love, laughter and some gray hair.
Now I'm going to live my life without drama and negative people.
No one who promises and promises without keeping it.
Take the days as they come, don't plan things,
no musts because I can do things whenever I want.
I don't care that it's a lot of dishes, or there's dust lying around every corner.
It's my home and if it's not good enough for others, don't come.
At least I have one thing I plan and hope it will be so.
And it's a beach holiday in the fall just to get away from it all and really hope I can do it.
That sounds like a good plan.
I'm going to keep painting because I love to do that.
Now I'm going to tell you about my best friend since I was young.
Last September, her 26-year-old son died.
He was hit by a truck with a trailer.
He drove over him over and over again with all wheels.
He did not stop when he heard the bang, but continues to drive several hundred meters.
Such a terrible death.
In August, there will finally be a trial.
I sincerely hope that he gets the punishment that he deserves.
He took a life and destroyed so many others. 
Ted will always live on in our hearts and never be forgotten.
That's all for now.
Take care of each other and enjoy life, you never know when it will end.
Love and hugs to you all out there / Ann