Good and bad!
As I said before, I belong to a large risk group,
because of my lungs and the cancer.
I am isolated at home and cannot work.
Meet very few people but I should not meet anyone at all.
I meet a lot of people when I was working
and walk 6-8 kilometers on my four hour job.
I miss this, even though I don't have the most fun job in the world,
I have so many wonderful people around me.
I try to tell myself that this is for your health,
but it is just as hard anyway.
I have been sitting in isolation for 33 days now.
Anxiety gets worse every day.
I go out and walk for a while every day but it takes the effort.
Because when I meet someone,
I take a different route so I don't get too close.
It's so fucking hard to have it like this.
Every time I hear someone sneeze or cough and when I do it myself
I get death anxiety.
The worst thing is that people do not take this seriously
they do not consider other people.
Still, the worst ones are those who say
"this is just an ordinary flu that doesn't affect me".
After all, this was not the way I had imagined my new life.
I would be free to do what I wanted, enjoy my new life and apartment. Invite friends home, take care of the apartment
and go and buy things I needed for it.
I can't buy my own food myself I have to order with home delivery.
Miss the feeling to see the things you buy and get inspiration.
I have arranged my crafter place but I have no inspiration.
I want my new life back but no one knows how long this is going on. Don't think I'm ungrateful because I'm not.
I am so grateful that they take me seriously
when it comes to my health.
Just wish that all people took care of others,
keep their distance and think about hygiene.
Store staff do everything possible to reduce the spread of infection,
Why don't the customers do the same.
My four best friends fight now are food, wine, sweets and music,
I will be so fat.
But there are also positive things
I have started talking to a friend I haven't met in at least 35 years.
But it feels good and pleases my days.
Now I'm going to have a glass of wine
and watch my favorite series. 24 with Kiefer Sutherland.
So I wish you all a wonderful day / evening
wherever in the world you are.
Love and Hugs for you all / Ann