Emotions!!
Today was the day I was going to have surgery,
but as I said, they canceled the time.
Within me, it has been difficult and emotional.
But it's good that family and friends are there.
I just wish it was over or that I woke up and it was just a nightmare.
Now it is getting very difficult, and a terrible anxiety.
I don't really know how to explain it, but everything feels terrible wrong.
So much has gone wrong this time so I'm just waiting for the next setback.
Life kicks your ass all the time.
My children and grandchildren have been here for dinner,
my son and his girlfriend were here on Saturday
and today I have taken care of the pug Skrållan,
so I have a lot of love around me and I love them so much.
But nobody and then I mean no one knows
what is going on in my head and how I feel.
I feel that I have to start living my life soon without anxiety and worries,
simply starting to feel good.
I really think it's my time now,
don't get me wrong I have experienced very nice moments.
But every time I feel that everything is about to get better,
something new will come.
So keep your fingers crossed.
Now I should feel sorry for myself for a little while.
Wish everyone a wonderful day / evening.
Love and Hugs for you all / Ann