Normal days!
I have decided that my life should be just like my normal life,
Then I realized that this is my normal life.
When you think everything is okay, life just throw it in your face.
Today I have been to jobbcoaching but I could really been home instead.
Then I went to my health center to take blood pressure.
I told her that I needed to do it because it was a little high when I was at the doctor a few days ago.
I told her three times why I had to do it, and she still asked me what it was I had.
Oh my GOD you are a nurse and I have to tell you what cancer in the breast are.
Well I have done it now.
When I was on my way home I met a scrappfriend and we chat for a while.
She asked me the same question many others do
" how can you be so calm about this? "
Well if you stressing up yourself it's so much harder but I'm not that calm all the time when you come home and everything is quiet the tears just fall,
at some point it all has to come out and it does belive me.
Right now sitting here and write I don't feel anything absolutly nothing.
But as soon as you put your head on the pillow "BANG" there it is.
I'm positive and I know that I will beat this but the feelings you can't control,
they just are there either you want it or not.
So wish me good luck I'm going to bed.
Wishing you all a good night sleep.
Love and Hugs for you all / Ann